Strange equations

Why do these mean people look at me so?
Am I funny looking?
Do I have something in my hair?
Why do they laugh at me, giggling?
What is it that makes me different or funny...
Well it is not

Laughing... should only occur during something funny
This situation does not seem to be in my calculations
Error
Impossible
Cannot compute
Re-enter the possible variables
I don't understand my society, the people and the people that have grown up.
I only understand what people are not what they pretend to be.
I can't understand these numbers on pages
I flip the pages back and forth but they do not run nor are compatible with my brain.
These people have me confused
they tease, abuse their friends
but when they leave
that's when they cry, claw back for their friends
Why?
I do not understand
What is this world?
Where have the correct, simple answers gone?
Society is lost, so where is the found?

Life ain't hard

Life ain't hard
I just make it so
When a question has such an simple answer
I go and take the high road
Instead of taking the shortcut
I walk the long way
I don't know why
Guess that's just how I choose my paths
The more complicated route
is the one I decide to pick
Crazy thoughts creep in and out
Laughing can hide many and express less
Smiles are saved for moments or fake meanings
Life ain't hard
I just make it so

Foolish

Deep in the soul
I just want to scream
I just want to fall to the floor
begging, like a child again.
Crying, laughing hysterically
With eyes on me
Center of attention
So
Tell me
Where are your eyes looking at?

Just a glimpse from an oak tree

The soft breeze catches the girl’s chestnut like hair to flow along the soft blue sky, causing the boy to linger in this image of her.  She takes her slender fingers and curls her hair over and over, tilting her head towards his direction. Her eyes, melted with each glance he took. And her delightful smile evokes a hidden blush to emerge from his tanned cheeks. He pulls away for a moment, taking all of the day’s memories into count. Then returns with the confidence he needs to say what he had on his mind. The boy and the girl begin speaking softly, the focus angles away... only to show their back and their sound of quiet bliss. The glint of the shaded leaves fall to his eyes, the girl slowly closes in on those eyes with a curious examination. Quickly, she hides her face embarrassed. For a split second it seemed the boy was drawn towards her face. The boy ashamed lets nature work its magic. The roughed and free spirited oak tree provides a welcoming environment.  And with the right lighting, matched with the music from birds chirping, to the chattering insects creates the perfect harmony of love. 

May 3rd :D

hehehe I was so happy today >.<

I should stop looking on the negative sides of life, so what if he isn't talking to me?
I am so happy I have such a good friends that care.
I will never stop smiling, because I have to be good enough to stay with you.
Ew not stay with you but more of a keep up with you.
You seem so strong especially to me, I keep leaning on you.
I hate it because I want to be independent. You help keep me strong but also make me weak.
I'm scared that you don't want me around, but today with a simple action you make me realize that isn't the case at all. I need to keep being me and be strong to achieve my goals.

Thank you!!! :)

I miss you

When one is in love, everyone becomes a poet.

This line, makes me recall all the times I held your hand the warmth and weird feeling on my cheeks to my beating heart. When you would tilt your head, the alluring smile of yours.
Treating you as a friend, someone I could trust and never let go. Feelings of disappointment when you would not even look at me anymore. I thought, I knew who you were... I thought I could have you be mine for a few more seconds. Skipping through the chains of where you would be happy to see me. Your big brown eyes, that even just for a second seemed to only align with my own eyes.

I would always apologize for nothing at all just so I could see you smile once again. Foolish tears would run down over and over, mistakes that can never have meaning unless you speak words and tease me once again.
Remember:
Laughing till nothing even meant anything in the world, just being there with you was all I needed to look forward to.

Trying each day to become closer to the ones you love, so when you let go you only have the happiest of memories and nothing, nothing can make you cry with pain.

This is gonna be really simple

I crossed my arms to my chest, one leg under the other posing no threat.
I took amusement to rethink my past, my jealous moments no one knew,funny how I was back then.
Yes, I was jealous of you and her because we used to click like that now its gone... probably forever.  It was you and I, I and you. Now it is you and her, her and you. I know, I made so many mistakes I cannot change or replace. I sit here thinking deeply, knowing I regret them all. I take them back, all of them back just wanting to speak to you.

You glare at me, roll your eyes. Never mouth a word to me. It sure is nice to write this out besides holding all this sadness within me. Never knew that a guy like you would waltz in my life, smart though to waltz back out thinking I don't like this style of dance. I chuckle again, counting my fingers in retrospect to my life. I first start out with a "good job", next comes the pointers, I'm stuck in the middle, slipping down till everything falls down to a promise I never made.
Don't try to think to hard when reading this. It may only ever make sense to me. And who knows if someone out there understands, this crazy mind of mine well kudos to you.

I used to think you liked her, crush and all. But how silly of me! You are just too nice to go out and fall whimsically.

I have one last wish. That each smile I form, let one, just one, put a twinkle in your mind.

I remember . . .

"Sometimes the best advice, like inspiration can come out of nowhere."

Let the smile break down, let it all out.

Whispering, crazy emotions break down, down, down.
Getting all skeptical when writing thoughts over and over. Knowing they come from someplace, called nowhere.
Feet positioned, grasping the foot of the chair.
Begin the groove, music controlling all emotions.
Gliding, breaking, snapping, twirling this is what music does. Sends something down deep inside, popping back out and making a descriptive, detailed scene. Got to be something that I saw on T.V.

Swimming eyes, they see beyond what is the norm. Focus, control, movement. Sensing beauty in only two areas. Those binoculars what do they see?
How can it be they cannot see, my heart but can fill the deepest part.
Trust let it roll of the roughest part of your tongue.
Simple and sweet, this is trickery.

Baggy blue sky, strapped around such tall legs.
As you walk, a shadow of mine follows.
There you go, leaving once again.

A game of cat and mouse.
Hide and seek.
Capture the flag.
Our game never ending, presence of only one fills the scene.
Capture it, who will win in the end?
Life never ends, only begins.
Next time, let it be you who has to find me
Begin!

never know, never will.

Let the birds feed on your flesh,

dripping down the sink

with

a calm splash of water.

Over your eyes, under those bruised cheeks.

What are you thinking of kid?

Brown draped hair, messed up like your life?

Got a wish, a penny to throw in a fountain now?

Why don't we start over, retrace those steps back on the black and white, dusty tiles.

To your room, cluttered.

Lets not forget the memories you ripped from the yearbook.

Spread like wildfire, burned down to the last page.

Don't remember what you wanted to forget.

Do clean up after yourself.

Now walk out that door, looking fresh, put on a weak smile and fool the entire world.